.... I will agree to that - similar feeling that I hype everything, when it actually is just a passing phase; too much involvement into other things, people, thoughts, etc.
...darling - it ain't kming - never ask a journo her source - its sacred
i will be dammed
understand
:(
.... I wish I'd live life like the way I wanted to often! *SIGH* neway, I had a good time, that's just what I called to say!
.... Why can't you be like the rest, look at them - they have children, you have nothing! NOTHING!
.... I have to go, it's a need - I can't take it any longer, I have to go!
...this country sucks, its people suck, the family sucks, my job sucks, b'bay is so freaking hot - it sucks. KD, I suck! HELP
.... Man, so many realizations in so little time, I tell you none of them are nice; but I am just happy that I have them! now I know my direction...
.... C - it's breaking me
K- don't tell me
C - you know, i didn't want to hear it, i didn't take up the topic. She said it.
K- you should have told her 'Thank you, but I do not wish to know. I have no interest."
C -how can I say that, it is rude.
K- letting it gnaw on your mind is rude and making me listen to it when you know it will affect me equally is 'cruel'. you should stop this.
C- sorry, but I cant keep it in mind. It will burst, I had to say....
K -Not to me, god dammit - I don't want to know, it fucks my mind.
(K slams the phone. C sends an apology. )
...I had a dream that a lizard bite my big toe. 'Ewww, why of all things, a lizard'. How would I know.
Apr 14, 2008
Apr 9, 2008
An Evening ...
I refused, pondered, made calls and decided to go to the Loquations almost after six months (or more). I missed the lady and the reading - above all I missed the memories - NCPA memories, sunken garden memories, Monaco memories, crowded memories, flirtatious memories, memories that carried a beacon assuring there was more to life, Baudelaire memories, Jim Morrison memories, my feet on wet cold grass memories, Fat cat on broad steps memories, Q memories, Tenzin memories, old woman with onyx, sapphire and penthouse without an heir memories, memories of sane men succumbing to depression, losing sight, losing wives - and finding refuge in arguing over other dead people.
My teeth are sunk too deep in this addiction... I leave, drift apart and return to feel these random ones - like the evening at Leopold's with half of me stepped over with two others and half of me left behind with three young faces.
The knowledge of now has often been the knowledge of what I had, and what I can have.
Getting Over Hurdle
Purple Pain
Hot Rain
Empty Cuddle
Boiling Despair
Parched Aspiration
Flickering Dream
Hateful Haste
Doubting Shadow
Steatopygic vacuum
Silent Smile
Reining Surrender
Sitting Quiet
Building Search
Garnering Warmth
Ceasing Despotism
Dusting Knees
Holding Breath
Counting Back-ups
Steatopygic Faith
Hot Rain
Empty Cuddle
Boiling Despair
Parched Aspiration
Flickering Dream
Hateful Haste
Doubting Shadow
Steatopygic vacuum
Silent Smile
Reining Surrender
Sitting Quiet
Building Search
Garnering Warmth
Ceasing Despotism
Dusting Knees
Holding Breath
Counting Back-ups
Steatopygic Faith
Apr 4, 2008
Literary Quotient dictating your life ?
It subconsciously does mine. Proust, Rand, Chekhov, Pushkin, Bronte, Kafka, Milton, Cope, Eliot, both the Wolf and Woolf (not to forget Albee) and Pound and Neruda and Shelley, Rousseau, Ginsberg, Wells, Plath, Achebe, Anatrajanam, Shidhwa, Greenberg and Pope and -
I don't expect anyone to quote or anything - but please say - say you have heard of them, if not read them!
For that matter, hows art? Picasso (I haven't found one person who could tell me why he liked Picasso's cubism except for saying “what kind of a question is that?'or why they like Raza's work - and its needless to mention the Cubits haven't really heard of Braque.And are unsure if Raza is alive or dead.), Rembrandt, Gabriel Rossetti... Please say that you know that Art for Art's sake lead to progressive modernism and we are very grateful to the Romantics who sowed seeds to the quote 'form follows function'.
Monk, Drama King, Loud mouth, Talkathon, Childmom and I - can't stand people who are not in touch with fiction or art (no matter how useless it maybe). Talk about Tanjore Paintings or Carvings or architecture and most look at you as if you were born on a shiny disc - there was a time when I was giving - up on the monk - till he spoke of Konark and I knew he had hope!
However that does not dictate our friendship. On one of our salad dinners - I asked monk the same and he cringed - 'YES! You are with me here coz you have some intellect! Coz you read! I have tastes - and like a woman who appreciates Steve Martin.' So you can't really be his partner if you read pop-fiction of Sidney Sheldon - That second, I wished aloud that this literary snoot falls for a girl who reads Mills and Boon or Sweetville!
And he was on the verge of ducking my head in the salad bowl! Those are his scariest nightmares - a woman who doesn't read sense.
I would agree to all the above [(though not to this extreme) Mushy's three musketeers in literature were Camus, Sartre and Kafka ( His highness is not married and has no relationship] - coz a partner who doesn't read or like movies is a problem area for me - and what I hated the most about Black pearl and I was that - in spite of never being asked to 'not do - or go to', I just stopped going to movies at Y.B and got slower with reading - he has my books and no matter how many books (or of what kind) i bought him - he did not read them. The last book he read was - an Arseholes guide to chicks - REALLY, what future can anyone have?
However - Talkothon and her Darling (yes, he is quite a darling!) get along fine (till date) - and he is the biggest ignorant literary or artistic fool she has ever met! He doesn't know anything about anything - it is that silly! She on the other hand can rip apart a scholar in East African literature - and our man has no clue - that there exist an East Africa! I rolled out with laughter and was completely astonished but she quickly replied - 'I know the world through the books - he knows it through the streets!' you know he hasn't read a single book - including his text books - and i am in love with him! Even as I assuaged her - I was laughing at fate and how 'love' just happens -regardless of one literary preferences!
But can you live forever with someone who disturbs you when you read or wants you to fast forward a silent movie you are watching? I get annoyed when I am reading an interesting twist and someone wants me to get up and get going about cleaning the room or do something equally senseless.
However, it doesn't annoy me when people don't know the things I know - I mean it's okay - you don't need to know everything (i don't know shit about most things either) or share all my tastes - just respect them! For example - my fetish for Greek mythology - if Black Pearl didn't know - we sat with a story telling session.
That is also something that is gravely wrong with Wise Capitalist and Chameleon - they are uninterested in everything that is remotely related to books, planet or painting. (their knowledge of geography like childmom's is howlarious. ask them to name the 5 oceans and they will say - Arabian sea, bay of Bengal and Indian ocean)! Seriously, no jokes. They often frown and discourage everyone around them who are keen on reading, visiting an art gallery or talking about (off-beat) movies - that is unacceptable and irritating!
Empathising with them - they get crazy bored when people just sit and read when ideally they should be spending time with them - making the friendly bonds stronger! However this also proves that if one does not know things about art, culture or ideology - it really doesn't matter that much!
Although it would be nice to have a partner know things - resting your relationship on the same is being very lame.
I don't expect anyone to quote or anything - but please say - say you have heard of them, if not read them!
For that matter, hows art? Picasso (I haven't found one person who could tell me why he liked Picasso's cubism except for saying “what kind of a question is that?'or why they like Raza's work - and its needless to mention the Cubits haven't really heard of Braque.And are unsure if Raza is alive or dead.), Rembrandt, Gabriel Rossetti... Please say that you know that Art for Art's sake lead to progressive modernism and we are very grateful to the Romantics who sowed seeds to the quote 'form follows function'.
Monk, Drama King, Loud mouth, Talkathon, Childmom and I - can't stand people who are not in touch with fiction or art (no matter how useless it maybe). Talk about Tanjore Paintings or Carvings or architecture and most look at you as if you were born on a shiny disc - there was a time when I was giving - up on the monk - till he spoke of Konark and I knew he had hope!
However that does not dictate our friendship. On one of our salad dinners - I asked monk the same and he cringed - 'YES! You are with me here coz you have some intellect! Coz you read! I have tastes - and like a woman who appreciates Steve Martin.' So you can't really be his partner if you read pop-fiction of Sidney Sheldon - That second, I wished aloud that this literary snoot falls for a girl who reads Mills and Boon or Sweetville!
And he was on the verge of ducking my head in the salad bowl! Those are his scariest nightmares - a woman who doesn't read sense.
I would agree to all the above [(though not to this extreme) Mushy's three musketeers in literature were Camus, Sartre and Kafka ( His highness is not married and has no relationship] - coz a partner who doesn't read or like movies is a problem area for me - and what I hated the most about Black pearl and I was that - in spite of never being asked to 'not do - or go to', I just stopped going to movies at Y.B and got slower with reading - he has my books and no matter how many books (or of what kind) i bought him - he did not read them. The last book he read was - an Arseholes guide to chicks - REALLY, what future can anyone have?
However - Talkothon and her Darling (yes, he is quite a darling!) get along fine (till date) - and he is the biggest ignorant literary or artistic fool she has ever met! He doesn't know anything about anything - it is that silly! She on the other hand can rip apart a scholar in East African literature - and our man has no clue - that there exist an East Africa! I rolled out with laughter and was completely astonished but she quickly replied - 'I know the world through the books - he knows it through the streets!' you know he hasn't read a single book - including his text books - and i am in love with him! Even as I assuaged her - I was laughing at fate and how 'love' just happens -regardless of one literary preferences!
But can you live forever with someone who disturbs you when you read or wants you to fast forward a silent movie you are watching? I get annoyed when I am reading an interesting twist and someone wants me to get up and get going about cleaning the room or do something equally senseless.
However, it doesn't annoy me when people don't know the things I know - I mean it's okay - you don't need to know everything (i don't know shit about most things either) or share all my tastes - just respect them! For example - my fetish for Greek mythology - if Black Pearl didn't know - we sat with a story telling session.
That is also something that is gravely wrong with Wise Capitalist and Chameleon - they are uninterested in everything that is remotely related to books, planet or painting. (their knowledge of geography like childmom's is howlarious. ask them to name the 5 oceans and they will say - Arabian sea, bay of Bengal and Indian ocean)! Seriously, no jokes. They often frown and discourage everyone around them who are keen on reading, visiting an art gallery or talking about (off-beat) movies - that is unacceptable and irritating!
Empathising with them - they get crazy bored when people just sit and read when ideally they should be spending time with them - making the friendly bonds stronger! However this also proves that if one does not know things about art, culture or ideology - it really doesn't matter that much!
Although it would be nice to have a partner know things - resting your relationship on the same is being very lame.
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