I love him :
in a way that love should not be discussed.
in a way that love should not be allowed to be.
Some loves are like body art,
you just have to live with the fact that you have them;
partially a fantasy, partially a scar.
Sometimes the hapless romantic in K reins over her soul, leaving her mind petrified.
Showing posts with label love and nothingness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love and nothingness. Show all posts
Jul 19, 2010
Jun 28, 2010
If it is not in here, it can not be found out there.
Love is a funny emotion. It will ensure you hang-on to the last thread of nothingness, till nothingness swallows you. It will disappear in fragments, just as it made it's presence in a fraction. We carry love with us, yet we rush into many doors to find it there and search for a spark, a hint, a sign from the Fates.
K is no different, she too at times falls for the 'if and then', falls for the 'guessing game'. Sometimes, she too is a desperate single woman, looking for a love that is in-sync with her love. Thanks to the many a frog princes in her life; she has outrun the tale, and finally rests with the love within; only to find that it is more satisfying than the fretting peace in the arms of a man of no consequence.
Thank you Mushy, Black Pearl, Pudgy Fingers, the Monk with beads and Oyster Seeker; you all have help me find my love in unmentionable and unacknowledged ways.
Ps. They are the most important people in my life, not necessarily the people I dated. Stop getting too autobiographical!
K is no different, she too at times falls for the 'if and then', falls for the 'guessing game'. Sometimes, she too is a desperate single woman, looking for a love that is in-sync with her love. Thanks to the many a frog princes in her life; she has outrun the tale, and finally rests with the love within; only to find that it is more satisfying than the fretting peace in the arms of a man of no consequence.
Thank you Mushy, Black Pearl, Pudgy Fingers, the Monk with beads and Oyster Seeker; you all have help me find my love in unmentionable and unacknowledged ways.
Ps. They are the most important people in my life, not necessarily the people I dated. Stop getting too autobiographical!
Jun 6, 2010
Of Love Stories...
There are many loves that we can not explain,
and many lovers that we can no longer acknowledge.
And the path of silent respect is the only way to face them.
Happy Birthday, Black Pearl.
and many lovers that we can no longer acknowledge.
And the path of silent respect is the only way to face them.
Happy Birthday, Black Pearl.
Aug 24, 2009
Love Again....
It's fascinating how i never get bored of writing about love and b'bay. Both are phenomenal emotions indeed!
K confesses
~"it just ran its course. It was an act of perfection - complete in it's candor, with a premise and a conclusion. I think we lived it fully.
I have learnt that you can not hold someone’s love against them.
Just as you can not hold your absence of love against you."
K confesses
~"it just ran its course. It was an act of perfection - complete in it's candor, with a premise and a conclusion. I think we lived it fully.
I have learnt that you can not hold someone’s love against them.
Just as you can not hold your absence of love against you."
Apr 4, 2008
Literary Quotient dictating your life ?
It subconsciously does mine. Proust, Rand, Chekhov, Pushkin, Bronte, Kafka, Milton, Cope, Eliot, both the Wolf and Woolf (not to forget Albee) and Pound and Neruda and Shelley, Rousseau, Ginsberg, Wells, Plath, Achebe, Anatrajanam, Shidhwa, Greenberg and Pope and -
I don't expect anyone to quote or anything - but please say - say you have heard of them, if not read them!
For that matter, hows art? Picasso (I haven't found one person who could tell me why he liked Picasso's cubism except for saying “what kind of a question is that?'or why they like Raza's work - and its needless to mention the Cubits haven't really heard of Braque.And are unsure if Raza is alive or dead.), Rembrandt, Gabriel Rossetti... Please say that you know that Art for Art's sake lead to progressive modernism and we are very grateful to the Romantics who sowed seeds to the quote 'form follows function'.
Monk, Drama King, Loud mouth, Talkathon, Childmom and I - can't stand people who are not in touch with fiction or art (no matter how useless it maybe). Talk about Tanjore Paintings or Carvings or architecture and most look at you as if you were born on a shiny disc - there was a time when I was giving - up on the monk - till he spoke of Konark and I knew he had hope!
However that does not dictate our friendship. On one of our salad dinners - I asked monk the same and he cringed - 'YES! You are with me here coz you have some intellect! Coz you read! I have tastes - and like a woman who appreciates Steve Martin.' So you can't really be his partner if you read pop-fiction of Sidney Sheldon - That second, I wished aloud that this literary snoot falls for a girl who reads Mills and Boon or Sweetville!
And he was on the verge of ducking my head in the salad bowl! Those are his scariest nightmares - a woman who doesn't read sense.
I would agree to all the above [(though not to this extreme) Mushy's three musketeers in literature were Camus, Sartre and Kafka ( His highness is not married and has no relationship] - coz a partner who doesn't read or like movies is a problem area for me - and what I hated the most about Black pearl and I was that - in spite of never being asked to 'not do - or go to', I just stopped going to movies at Y.B and got slower with reading - he has my books and no matter how many books (or of what kind) i bought him - he did not read them. The last book he read was - an Arseholes guide to chicks - REALLY, what future can anyone have?
However - Talkothon and her Darling (yes, he is quite a darling!) get along fine (till date) - and he is the biggest ignorant literary or artistic fool she has ever met! He doesn't know anything about anything - it is that silly! She on the other hand can rip apart a scholar in East African literature - and our man has no clue - that there exist an East Africa! I rolled out with laughter and was completely astonished but she quickly replied - 'I know the world through the books - he knows it through the streets!' you know he hasn't read a single book - including his text books - and i am in love with him! Even as I assuaged her - I was laughing at fate and how 'love' just happens -regardless of one literary preferences!
But can you live forever with someone who disturbs you when you read or wants you to fast forward a silent movie you are watching? I get annoyed when I am reading an interesting twist and someone wants me to get up and get going about cleaning the room or do something equally senseless.
However, it doesn't annoy me when people don't know the things I know - I mean it's okay - you don't need to know everything (i don't know shit about most things either) or share all my tastes - just respect them! For example - my fetish for Greek mythology - if Black Pearl didn't know - we sat with a story telling session.
That is also something that is gravely wrong with Wise Capitalist and Chameleon - they are uninterested in everything that is remotely related to books, planet or painting. (their knowledge of geography like childmom's is howlarious. ask them to name the 5 oceans and they will say - Arabian sea, bay of Bengal and Indian ocean)! Seriously, no jokes. They often frown and discourage everyone around them who are keen on reading, visiting an art gallery or talking about (off-beat) movies - that is unacceptable and irritating!
Empathising with them - they get crazy bored when people just sit and read when ideally they should be spending time with them - making the friendly bonds stronger! However this also proves that if one does not know things about art, culture or ideology - it really doesn't matter that much!
Although it would be nice to have a partner know things - resting your relationship on the same is being very lame.
I don't expect anyone to quote or anything - but please say - say you have heard of them, if not read them!
For that matter, hows art? Picasso (I haven't found one person who could tell me why he liked Picasso's cubism except for saying “what kind of a question is that?'or why they like Raza's work - and its needless to mention the Cubits haven't really heard of Braque.And are unsure if Raza is alive or dead.), Rembrandt, Gabriel Rossetti... Please say that you know that Art for Art's sake lead to progressive modernism and we are very grateful to the Romantics who sowed seeds to the quote 'form follows function'.
Monk, Drama King, Loud mouth, Talkathon, Childmom and I - can't stand people who are not in touch with fiction or art (no matter how useless it maybe). Talk about Tanjore Paintings or Carvings or architecture and most look at you as if you were born on a shiny disc - there was a time when I was giving - up on the monk - till he spoke of Konark and I knew he had hope!
However that does not dictate our friendship. On one of our salad dinners - I asked monk the same and he cringed - 'YES! You are with me here coz you have some intellect! Coz you read! I have tastes - and like a woman who appreciates Steve Martin.' So you can't really be his partner if you read pop-fiction of Sidney Sheldon - That second, I wished aloud that this literary snoot falls for a girl who reads Mills and Boon or Sweetville!
And he was on the verge of ducking my head in the salad bowl! Those are his scariest nightmares - a woman who doesn't read sense.
I would agree to all the above [(though not to this extreme) Mushy's three musketeers in literature were Camus, Sartre and Kafka ( His highness is not married and has no relationship] - coz a partner who doesn't read or like movies is a problem area for me - and what I hated the most about Black pearl and I was that - in spite of never being asked to 'not do - or go to', I just stopped going to movies at Y.B and got slower with reading - he has my books and no matter how many books (or of what kind) i bought him - he did not read them. The last book he read was - an Arseholes guide to chicks - REALLY, what future can anyone have?
However - Talkothon and her Darling (yes, he is quite a darling!) get along fine (till date) - and he is the biggest ignorant literary or artistic fool she has ever met! He doesn't know anything about anything - it is that silly! She on the other hand can rip apart a scholar in East African literature - and our man has no clue - that there exist an East Africa! I rolled out with laughter and was completely astonished but she quickly replied - 'I know the world through the books - he knows it through the streets!' you know he hasn't read a single book - including his text books - and i am in love with him! Even as I assuaged her - I was laughing at fate and how 'love' just happens -regardless of one literary preferences!
But can you live forever with someone who disturbs you when you read or wants you to fast forward a silent movie you are watching? I get annoyed when I am reading an interesting twist and someone wants me to get up and get going about cleaning the room or do something equally senseless.
However, it doesn't annoy me when people don't know the things I know - I mean it's okay - you don't need to know everything (i don't know shit about most things either) or share all my tastes - just respect them! For example - my fetish for Greek mythology - if Black Pearl didn't know - we sat with a story telling session.
That is also something that is gravely wrong with Wise Capitalist and Chameleon - they are uninterested in everything that is remotely related to books, planet or painting. (their knowledge of geography like childmom's is howlarious. ask them to name the 5 oceans and they will say - Arabian sea, bay of Bengal and Indian ocean)! Seriously, no jokes. They often frown and discourage everyone around them who are keen on reading, visiting an art gallery or talking about (off-beat) movies - that is unacceptable and irritating!
Empathising with them - they get crazy bored when people just sit and read when ideally they should be spending time with them - making the friendly bonds stronger! However this also proves that if one does not know things about art, culture or ideology - it really doesn't matter that much!
Although it would be nice to have a partner know things - resting your relationship on the same is being very lame.
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